It began with a whisper

There are some thoughts running around my heart this afternoon that I just need to get out in order to possibly gain some perspective. I do not know if they will mean anything to you, but I believe that collectively, they are all pieces of a much larger picture that the Lord is creating in my life. So here we go:
~ I have been praying for a friend of mine for a while now. I believe there is a connection there between us, and others have seen it as well, but I am being told repeatedly to just "Trust Me and Don't Run." If I could show you the number of times this has been an answer to prayer, you would laugh. It is much easier to push the person away and prove that I am not deserving of a relationship than to put myself out there and trust You that I won't be trampled on again. Just this morning I was told... "Just be yourself and love everyone around you like you always have. Don't run when it comes... Trust ME."
~ Control - I crave it - ugh. If I have control over the situation, then I know what is going to happen. I am being asked to give that up. On a moment to moment basis. Scary? Um, YEAH! But then I sit back and think - it hasn't worked for me this far, so why not give it up to the creator of the universe and try things His way for a while? Yes, that sounds better. (I think that this should apply to the previous answer - Cherise, take a note!!
~ Separation - I am being purged of things in my heart and flesh in a way like I have never been touched before. I will come to service or a prayer meeting, or even just sitting in my car listening to music and all of a sudden, I am in a heap on the floor in tears... just sobbing. And I hear God whisper.. am I enough? Tell me, am I enough? It is in those moments that I know true separation is just beginning for me. All of what I thought I had done before was a stepping stone.
~ A calling like no other - I have always known, from a very young age, that I was called. At first I thought it was to have a school and to teach, then I believed I was going to work with special needs children, now I am not exactly what it all entails, but the Lord has had me change my major to social work and I will be working on my masters in order to counsel people. I also feel a rising inside of me to share the Word. I do not know what it is, but I know the Lord is up to something.
~ Waiting on You - Again, I thought I knew how to do this. But really I was fooling myself by telling myself I was waiting on you when I was really just trying to make things happen on my own - on the side. Kind of "well, if I need to wait, I might as well be doing something."
~ Finding out that I am loved.... deeply and completely for who I am and not what I do or what I bring to the table. This is a huge one and I am still wrapping my brain and heart around it.

Like I said, these are just some random things in my heart... that is what happens when God whispers your name.