First of all I want to start out by saying that Yes, the Lord is more than enough for me. However, I am still human. I still have bad days. And when those days, like today, come... these are the thoughts that run through my head.
Wouldn't it be nice...
~To have a soft place to land?
~To be able to lay on the couch next to that one person who can look at me and understand where I am?
~To not have to explain why I am happy and devastated that my 5 year old kicked the assistant principle in the shin today and then lied about it to his teacher and to me?
~To have someone to just offer me a hand when I am carrying all that I possibly can and still cannot get it all?
~To not feel guilty when I have my moments of weakness?
~To be able to sit with the man that I love, massage his neck and rub his temples... and tell him that we are going to be ok?
I guess I just want to be held and loved tonight.. I get tired of the super woman cape from time to time. I do not wear it as much as I used to, thankfully. But it is days like today that I truly see my situation for what it is. It is me and my precious boys and God. What a team, I know. And I believe that He is enough. I know He is... but am I????
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